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Shirley Ang also known as Shir

4th of July 1988 *20, going on R21

Graduate from NpEch, NraDance

Adores:
~Him, the tall slim one.
~Her dearest family
~Her lifelong chums
~Music, Dance,
~Junk Food, Novels, Archie comics
~Intelligent Banters yet Nonsense.

I am currently wondering where my next phase of life will take me. I'm also a UK size 6 whom is perpetually late. I tend to procrastinate altho i dislike it. Im totally jaded about ulcers because of my favourite indulgence in junkfood. I love kids and all things small as midget-sized things are always adorable. So if you decide to like me amidst my weird quirks, i think i'll like you too (:

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    Wednesday, October 28, 2009
    Parties. Time.

    Parties and more parties. It's fun and relaxing i guess. Though we often have to come back down to reality after all that jazz.

    & i'm missing time with my family. i know time is e same for everyone, it can't be exceptionally short for me and i can't make it longer. Ought to remember to spend it wisely. & seriously want to stop my procrastination this time round. Time time time. i wish it would stop.

    Still, i enjoy the parties and want more of my nightlife back as it is my out__ (out what? forgot what's e word. it's like my way of letting out stress. ahh).

    Such a contradiction.

    My thought are all over. I'm going to try to sleep before 3am today. Need my rest. Bringing e kids out on field trip to Science Centre tml! Maybe we'll go see the Body stuff too if we have the time! Night blog, don't write me off just yet!

    it's 12:15 AM now

    Sunday, October 18, 2009
    can't accept it.

    this is the worst moment in my life so far. i hate it. i resent it. i don't know how to feel, how to behave and how to carry on with this knowledge. i go to sleep hoping i'll wake up realizing that this is a bad dream, a nightmare.

    what is life? i dont get you.

    are there miracles? i hope so. if i believe hard enough, it would happen, right?

    i want to be able to carry on normally but then again i don't want to. If i can't, it's not healthy. If i can, doesn't it mean that i'm nonchalant? i don't want to look back and have any regrets at all. i just want to spend time together and hope time stands still now.

    i wish that moment in november didn't happen and i wish with all my life that i can change this. i have never wanted anything this bad before.

    my thoughts are all jumbled up. and i can't stop the tears. i need a shoulder to lean on.

    it's 2:30 AM now

    Wednesday, October 07, 2009
    i am a tiger, hear me roar. Meow?

    HELLO! I've been missing for awhile again. It's the same ol' story of my work. But let us not go into that! It's already over 130am now n i'm pretty sure (Pretty-Shir. HAHA) i'm going to end up sleeping after 2am again. Tsk. So it's a short entry here to update u on my little life (:

    You would probably have known from Twitter, FB or even on this blog itself that i permed my hair again! This time i wanted a wild perm right from the top of the head, unlike my old ladylady style. So my hairstylist assumed he knew what i want and went ahead with it. This was the first visit to perm:



    horrifying-looking contraption that clipped my hair :( i SO did not want to use it. Looks so monsterish and like it's going to pull out all my hair. But i didnt have a choice as this is e new machine. The old one was really hot when it held my hair! i think i have pictures of my hair when i was perming it last year.

    Super Aunty Me! Everytime im going to look funny, the hairstylist will go, "quick take out your camera". He also likes to make his customers look amusing when he is working on 'em, for instance, clip away half the hair in funny dos when he is cutting the other. -.-"

    Of course i will upload my dear friend's funny picture along with mine. This was e previous visit where i accompanied her for her hair dye. Guess who?


    And Tadah! End result of first time. I know, the curl doesnt seem to be from the top. When i asked him, he said, "i blowdry for you already ma, you wash already will come out." :/ Oh btw, doesn't YewTee's washroom look like the old MOS one? *nostalgic

    YewTee also can camwhore.

    My YewTee khaki! Ooops, too dark!

    That's better, Eh, not really cause i look kind of drunk here somehow.

    Another. There with my hao peng yous who accompanied me. Our hair were all done by the same amusing person. Guess if we're happy about it? HAHA.

    And then i went homeee! Papa took this picture for me. My hairstylist insisted "no lah, it won't be like maggie mee".

    So remember i mentioned at the start this was the first visit to perm my hair this year? As usual, i had to go a second time. Feel pai seh to go back again but he welcomed me back if i don't like it... And it really wasn't the style i wanted. The top part was not even curled. Plus you know my hair is so stubbornly soft and straight, it takes a few curls to have that little bit visible. Check back the first picture of my straight hair!

    SO after the second visit, my hair was slightly more permed. I've got some photos of my hair after the second time... eh... no, this was only after the first visit. Oh well. My second 'family' and I went out for dinner at Manhattan Fish Market and had a walk around the riverside! We saw a bunch of funny caucasians and a man who was dancing in a tube and tight shorts. A tag over his head says, "Getting married tml. Will dance for $." FWAHAHAHA. His dancing was so entertaining. Bee even recorded it down! Imagine if it is played on his wedding day? LOL.

    Then, we headed over to a secret place to play Wii (:


    Rock Band! Papa, mama, sis and i did really well after failing the first 4 songs! Hey, it's better than our second game day with the rest pf the gang... HAHA. But i had fun nonetheless. We all preferred the silly Rabbits game though! The sound effects, animation and game idea was just hilariously cute! *starts mimicking the annoying rabbits.

    Alrighty, this was fun. I've gotta get back to reality though.

    Goodnight world, i'll probably still be on FB and Twitter (if you havent already, go follow me for my tweets!). Oh, i have to wake up at 7.15am each day. *shrugs. Bye!

    Whoopsie, night baby! You must be really tired today. See you soon! (:

    it's 2:15 AM now

    Thursday, September 17, 2009
    love the unexpected praises (:

    i came by to blog about something nice but i realized i am still not done preparing for my lessons tomorrow! So to cut to the chase, i left work insanely late today and was supposed to feel irritable as usual.

    But. I read an email from a difficult parent (in the past). And it was an email for praise the first time round. The subject was "Thank you" and the short paragraph goes like this:

    "Dear Shirley, would like to say thank you for putting in the effort in making the lessons interesting. Keep up the good work! Heard a few feedback including my own, the children enjoyed going to school. Especially your lesson. :)"

    And that made my night.

    It came at just the right time when i feel so down and demoralised. It reminded me of the satisfaction in teaching, which i have forgotten amidst all these work load. Let me not think of anything negative at least for the rest of the night. All you nigging negative and unsure thoughts, please stay at the back of my mind! PURR!

    Shall go prepare for my lesson again though i'm super lethargic and once again working on my off day Thursday. Night bloggie! I love FatFat! (:

    it's 1:20 AM now

    Wednesday, September 16, 2009
    Rant -lowlifes and hair

    I feel the need to blog in moments throughout the day now. Whenever i feel a need to share happy things or rant at e usual shenanigans, i think of channelling 'em here.

    Which means i would update often but less so with pictures and interesting posts, like how i wanted this blog to be. If you are around long enough, you'd probbaly know that i started this blog to ink happy memories only. Unhappy ones still go to my old blog or i simply keep as draft. But i figured it's a blog still and i rather it be real than a facade of happy fronts (like so many other occasions and people out there).

    So a normal Tuesday went by, with me stressing out about working too much and doing thigns too slowly. Starting to get really annoyed with myself :(

    But more annoyed with YOU. Not my hairstylist, that will come later. but YOU. and YOU. Stop bootlicking and acting. How do i make myself like someone and try to work happily together when i just dislike him/her? You disgust me. Pfft.

    My hairstylist. GRR. I'm beginning to doubt his abilities la. After introducing my friends over and them not liking the outcome. Oh yeah i decided to perm my hair again. Did it on Friday then again today as he didnt do as what i wanted. And today he was telling me to perm my fringe, i thought it was to keep it to the side. BUT i realized it was merely for amusement -.-" It was BOOM like a ball of tangled mess and i almost freaked out. Then he washed and straightened it with the straighener. Like huh? What was the point in that, apart from amusement, and spoiling the condition of my fringe? :( The rest of my hair has gotten drier after my 4 perming sessions in the past year but at least i had my nice fringe. I'm all about the natural 'feel' of my hair :x

    Then he had to make it weird too :( Now it's flat after straightening and it's drier than the original state too. Unhappy that it was permed and straightened just for amusement sake. And worried that my hair is going to be horrid after these sessions. Guess i must really look after my locks now.

    Alright, don't mind me as i get back to my way too stressful life. Maybe i should just drop out from this line completely. And go cut people's hair for amusement. GAHH.

    2 random people commented from nowhere that i'm "gorgeous" and "really pretty". HAH. It's supposed to be a happy day, really. Look at me smiling.

    Wonder how long i can last with all these emotions swimming around. Bye bloggie!

    it's 1:20 AM now

    Tuesday, September 15, 2009
    Singlish.

    And so begins another term of trying to reach work early but failing, trying to leave work on time but leaving only after 8pm each day and being stressed out with the never ending list of things to do.

    Somehow it never seems enough no matter how hard i try :( I abhor that i can't seem to do all the work quickly and leave at least by my stipulated time; i just end up leaving work around 8pm with more work on my mind as i get home. Teaching is not easy. Screw you if you think it's just about changing diapers (which is not that easy and fun a task) and talking about apples!

    I don't want to be mediocre. I don't want to teach anyhow or repeat a word 100 times for children to memorise and remember. I don't wish to pretend to be nice to the children just so others see it like i honestly think is what you are doing. Please stop your juvenile acts and drama, it's getting on my nerves. I want my lesson to be fun and still they learn. I want to put in my all and see the worth in it.

    So anyway, i left work at about 9pm (that's more than 12 hours of work, mind you. That's why i have the right to rant. That, and also because this is my blog) and reached home researching more for my lesson tml. Why am i taking so much time to plan 1 day's lesson? It's 3 levels but just a handful of children! *Harrumph.

    Oh yeah, i found something interesting in the process of researching on Singapore's culture (relating to the theme this week. i was trying to find out about the traditional costumes and food of our 4 ethic races):

    "Nearly everyone in Singapore speaks more than one language, with many people speaking three or four. Most children grow up bilingual from infancy and learn more languages as they grow up. Naturally the presence of other languages (especially various varieties of Malay and of Chinese) has influenced the English of Singapore. The influence is especially apparent in the kind of English that is used informally, which is popularly called Singlish. Singlish is a badge of identity for many Singaporeans.

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    Speakers of Singlish will usually end his sentence with a distinctive exclamation. The three most common are ah, lah, ley and what.


    Examples:
    OK lah, bye bye.
    Don't like that lah.
    You are going there ah?
    No parking lots here, what.
    The price is too high for me lah.
    And then how many rooms ah?
    It is very troublesome ley.
    Don't be like that ley!
    I'm not at home lah. That's why ah.
    " (extracted from singaporeexpats.com)

    HAHAHA. Goodness gracious me! So Singlish has really become OUR language. Like other countries have French, German, Spanish, ... ... we have SINGLISH. And it even has its definition and examples that come along with it on the net. It's like checking out the dictionary for an unknown word and they tell you the context of how it can be used.

    So now do you know how to use your 'lahs' and leys' already? Please brush up on 'em as it is our identity and in time to come, tourists might be visiting just to get a 'feel' of our special language. *Shudders*

    We are most certainly an unique bunch. Maybe i should tell my kids tomorrow about our local culture and language huh?

    Okay LAH. Enough already LOH. I need to go off AH as i'm still hoping to finish watching a dvd Mr boyfriend and i rented but dint manage to finish. I'm still trying to sleep early, mind you AH.

    Night world, and Happy 31 Month hon! (:

    it's 1:30 AM now

    Friday, September 11, 2009
    to perm, or not to perm?

    So...






    to PERM,





    or NOT TO PERM...?

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    I'm not thinking about my old perm from below the ears actually. Not the mid-to-big luscious curls. But the from-top-of-head mid wild curls. Think POOF, and not maggie mee please! Am afraid to turn out looking like an auntie or anything negative like that. Can't decide, yet i'm most probably heading to e salon tml. So much to do, so little time!

    it's 2:30 AM now