It's been the longest time since i visited, much less update my blog. It's wonder that are still people who checks back, thank you (:

I've been waaaay too cooped up with work since the start of August (i think). All work and no play makes Shirley a boring girl :( And an overly tired one at that. The most frequently thought emotions are 'tired', 'drained', 'stressed' and 'unhappy'.

I don't know if this is all worth it. I'm already doing so much, yet it's never enough. The list of things to do is endless, how am i going to help bring the place up? What do people see? What they want to see i presume. Who am i, really?

I have no idea how long more i can take this. I miss simply being with the children, looking, staring and smiling at their innocence. I miss the innocence.

I think everyone should step back and reflect on themselves once in awhile. For you will never see what's the truth, but just what you want to believe. I think i need to stop trusting people so easily like i always do.

Oh, what does being young means? Young and Inexperienced? Must the 2 words always go together? Does it mean if you're older, more experienced, then you are doing can do a better job? It doesn't.

Quit second-guessing if you are related to this entry. If you feel funny about yourself after reading this entry, you probably should reflect.

I guess i'm beyond caring who reads what im blogging. I'm too busy to lock up my posts.

Arg. Hate that my update after so long is but a long page of rants. I'm still trying. If i finally give up, it doesn't mean i'm the loser. It just means i deem it's no longer worth trying so hard for.

I miss spending time with my loved ones. I miss time doing the important things. I miss time doing things that make me happy.

What do you really want? and What do I, really want?

it's 2:07 AM now