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Shirley Ang also known as Shir

4th of July 1988 *r21

Graduate from NpEch, NraDance

Adores:
~Him, the tall slim one.
~Her dearest family
~Her lifelong chums
~Music, Dance,
~Junk Food, Novels, Archie comics
~Intelligent Banters yet Nonsense.

I am currently wondering where my next phase of life will take me. I'm also a UK size 6 whom is perpetually late. I tend to procrastinate altho i dislike it. Im totally jaded about ulcers because of my favourite indulgence in junkfood. I love kids and all things small as midget-sized things are always adorable. So if you decide to like me amidst my weird quirks, i think i'll like you too (:

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    Tuesday, December 29, 2009
    Goodbye, baby.

    Well hello there! I'm obviously back from wonderful Thailand, Bangkok. *Khabu Khab~*

    Please believe me when i say i'm going to blog about my 5 day Bangkok Trip okay? I'm trying hard to curb my bad habits, especially the procrastination and junkfood frenzy. And i think i have improved somewhat. *beams*

    I guess there's one thing left to do before i move on with my life as a singleton... Yes i partied, got semi-drunk, cried my eyes out (when i was tipsy?), got hungover with days of migraine, lost my appetite, escaped to a foreign country... okay lah some of these things just happened at the same time. But anyway, i wanted to say that i cleared most of my life of him.

    The annoying thing is that because it's been 3 years, everything seems to remind you of the person. I have included him in every part of my life and given my all. I have been down the route of "was it mostly my fault" and so on but ultimately i guess it doesn't matter anymore. So yeah, i need to stop thinking about it :/

    So i was saying, it's been so long it's hard to clear my life of him but then again, we didn't have much to begin with. All this dawned on me when i started clearing away our things. The changes... I should have realized this and ended it earlier before all this shit could happen. I think the familiarity took the best of me and i was hanging on.

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    That is like 90% of our story. Not including the plushies and photos i guess. I am anal like that. I insist to keep all the small things -every movie ticket, sentosa ticket, candle... At times i think i should be a guy :/ So yeah, i packed 'em up and they fit easily into these li'l packages. I'll have to remove the plushies from my bed one by one as i still can't bear them.

    I think this is the last time you will hear about "FatFat", "baby", or see our photograph (there in the photo got our picture what!). Guess i'll have to remove my photo-video-scroll thingy too cause it contains a lot of our photos.

    With a heavy heart, this has truly come to an end. I hope that the past 3 years havent been just a dream on my part. Each time i want to feel nostalgic, the image of your photos and your lies hit me in the face. So i'm not going to let myself miss anything. I'll look back and smile. I'll just remember the happy times, however little they were.

    From the bottom of my heart, thank you for the memories. I wish you and your family well.

    I believe i am strong enough now that i can blog like that without feeling the familar pang in my heart.

    I'm just waiting for the rumors and gossips to die. Yes i ended it, but he wanted it too. Yes of course it hurts like hell and it gives me sleepless night and empty dreams. Hope that's enough information for you. Let's move on now, shall we?

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    I told you i'm grand. Just addicted to nightlife once again :/ I'm doing things i have never done before, and doing things just because i can. I love my family and my friends and the wonderful people who have been helping me stay happy. Thank you.

    This holiday has been really long. 2 weeks ago and now seems to be a world apart. I'm actually glad about it. Tml, i'm starting work again. It's not exactly a brand new start, but it's a change. Next year will be the full-fledged change. I seriously can't wait to start a new phase of my life. I know i sound like i'm down, but i'm not laa. I'm grand (: byeee!

    it's 2:10 AM now

    Sunday, December 20, 2009
    Off to Bangkok! (:

    AHH. Where did the time go? The past week have been hazy...

    I planned to clear out my room and update on my non-love life since suddenly my blog viewership have gone up by leaps. Hmm... But like i said the past week have been too hazy. I have not had a proper sleep for awhile and i'm feeling super sickly :( And i need to get up in 2+ hours. Pls let me be fine by then!

    Alrights! I'll update everything when i'm back from Thailand. I'll be back on the 24th around evening i presume. Please miss me while i'm away and wait for me under the mistletoe :/ I know you you you and you are reading! Tag my blog to make me feel loved can? lol.

    Now i just need to summon up my energy and excitement for the holiday.

    Shir's going to leave everything behind and escape for 5 days. Goodbye!

    it's 3:02 AM now

    Tuesday, December 15, 2009
    i'm single.

    i typed a post, then decided to save it as draft instead. Let's keep it simple.

    We broke up. No more you me us. I called him up last night to end it and he was just waiting around for me to end it too. This should have been done earlier.

    I feel like i don't know you at all.

    Now i believe that one can get so upset/disgusted that they vomit. & keep wanting to do so though there's nothing left to throw up. Been 48 hours of not sleeping. When late night falls, it's the hardest part i admit. I can't say that im not hurt, because i truly am. I guess you're not worth it at all. I would like to think that you are though, because it's been almost 3 years. Anyway, don't underestimate me.

    Don't worry about me, i'm grand (: I'm back, stronger than ever. I can't wait to start a new phase in my life. Good night (:

    it's 1:42 AM now

    Monday, December 14, 2009
    it's the end.

    This is it. I've had my share of bad news. I need to stay strong.

    it's 1:15 AM now

    Thursday, December 10, 2009
    Rants: patient throughout 5 hour wait for m1 iphone BUT.

    RANTING TIME.


    No, i'm not grumbling beacause i queued FIVE hours for my m1 iphone from daylight...

    till dark...



    for this measly piece of paper:


    Nor am i grumbling because i had to continue to queue for these 4 numbers to show up on the screen for my turn, nor because i had to wait another 30 people just for payment.

    No, i'm complaining because the M1 girl doesn't know how to do her job properly!

    Firstly, i have no idea why she had to take my simcard and keep it in the iphone till payment time. After waiting pass around 10 people, i decided it was just too pointless to keep my card there and i can't use my current phone. And what if they gave away the iphone with MY simcard in it?! *shudders* So, i asked it back from her.

    She searched for my iphone, then tried to take out my simcard. She couldn't get it out. She took out her NAME TAG and used the PIN at the back of it to poke at my iphone. She poked at e li'l hole, she poked all over the simcard holder. She used her fake nails to try desperately to scratch the simcard out.

    She got the guy beside her to help and he whispered, "don't use that pin". (I didn't understand fully as this' the first time i'm getting an iphone, perhaps she should try another pin, i thought). Still, it was all in vain. My poor simcard was stuck in there. My only thought was "darn, get my card out!" and "the phone is probably faulty, i need to get her to get me a new piece!" Then she went in to get the manager's help and came out sputtering, "dunno why when i do here cannot, go in show him then can come out".

    This time, she used the SPECIAL PIN designed for iphones and of course, the simcard holder came out easily. I was like, "so u mean there's a pin for it..." And took the phone to check for obvious scratches which i couldn't see. My main focus then was to see if my phone is fine and usable and that was all. (I didn't realize the faulty thing was Her.) I dislike not being able to think on my feet fast enough :(

    I paid, then immediately took my iphone out to check it. And there they were. Tiny scratches near the hole and sim card holder. Tiny ones but it's my new phone what, sure will scrutinize right?! Like you won't!

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    I went away to watch 'Cruel Temptation' that my family record everyday and now i feel okay already lah. Just wanted to grumble! That M1 girl was too unprofessional to use a random pin and poke at a new phone. Her name's Yvonne :/ After being the patient and understanding customer for 5 hours, i had to be the unlucky one. Oh well.

    See, women are vicious and scary. Something like that can be analysed to bits and blogged about over 500characters. Then we'll feel somewhat appeased. Okay i need to stop scrutinzing my iphone! Let it be a good $518 well spent please! *breathes in and out in a bitch fit*

    it's 1:15 AM now

    Sunday, December 06, 2009
    poison.

    you're just like poison.

    it's 11:41 PM now