Im like having interview marathons. I have a trial session at one of the kids gym i interviewed for earlier tml and i am f.r.e.a.k.i.n.g..o.u.t.

I believe i will be assisting and maybe leading the playgroup class and i have no idea what i would be going to do/should do :( I never take playgroup; im the N2 and K1 teacher :( Anyway, what i really want is to be the gym trainers, not teachers. at all. Not even few days teacher then few days trainer. I want purely full-time gym instructor for children. Why is that so hard to find? :(

Im scared. And i have to be there at 1030am. That is like the crack of dawn for me can? How am i going to wake up at 830am after 5 months of 5am sleeping times and 3pm waking times?

Okay breathe. I will repeat this mantra.

I will be fine.
I will be fine.
I will be fine.

arrrRrrRr. Two much idling and doing everything whenever i like it is bad. I mean it's great i love it but it's bad when you are trying to get back on track and do something serious. What if im just not a serious person after all? What if i like to work retail part-time, dress up nicely each day, idle and party whenever i want to?

I shall chomp my stress away with junk food.

it's 2:34 AM now