I miss this life. This carefree, do whatever i want whenever i want it feeling. I miss tanning by the beach with a chickflick-sorta-book, junkfood and a girlfriend. I miss YANA with her silly penguin bookmark from that day. I miss eating melted Vanhouten Chocolate with her out of the box with our bare hands and thinking about shopping after. YANA where are you?!

I hate stress. I hate it when there are little wrong things going on in my life and i hate that i get affected over the smallest things on end. It's like when i have a great day then 1 tiny detail comes into place and pfft, i'm having a bad day. I can't stand that about myself. I can't divide myself into parts like some people can. Focus, that's the word. For me, it's all about focusing on the wrong things. I simply can't shut off 1 part of my brain or push it to the back of my mind when i need to focus on the task at hand. Why am i so sensitive and get affected so damn easily?

[On a side note (although i don't really have a main topic here...), i bought this mask thing from the party shop at Jurong Point! I forgot what its called, i think it has a proper name right? At masquerades people wear it and hold it with a stick on 1 side of the mask. It's usually decorated with loads of studs and feather boas.

I've always wanted 1 of my own! However the only nice ones i've seen are from overseas and are like mad expensive. I wouldn't be able to use 'em anyway. Guess how much this it?

It's... .... $2.00 only! I know it's totally plain and white lah but my handphone camera doesn't do it justice. It's like a tad translucent and it has these scribbling-like decorations all over it. It comes with a silverish white ribbon on the sides for you to tie them behind your head. It's nice ok! I hope i get the chance to wear it, maybe on Halloween or something, when BEE dresses up as a PUMPKIN. Haha. So, i didn't know where to display my mask and decided to prop it on top of my humble full-length mirror. Yes, that's a Tweety Bird with pampers on her too.

And i was thinking, maybe a mask is what we're all wearing really. A facade. I'm hesitant of making my blog public and putting it up on my FB as im not sure if i want everybody to be able to read my thoughts and opinions especially when it might be about certain people/issues. Hmm... i kind of wished i have a good poker face and can keep things to myself. I dislike myself for not being able to control, for blabbering out everything if you are just a tad nice to me. And often, the people i talk to aren't worth telling at all. Then i regret. It's a vicious cycle. *slaps self*]

I love days when i know i have nothing on my To Do List, apart from enjoying the day with my loved ones. Recently, baby's been busy and we've been having a slightly tough time. I'm thankful to have my friends around and of course my family. I love time spent on chilling, doing silly things, eating and laughing - laughing till our bellies ache and tears come out from our eyes.

Alright i shall stop reminiscing as though im 45. I'm feeling disgusted with the Durian taste in my mouth right now. In the past 24 hours, i've had a huge bar of Cadbury fruit & nut chocolate, Rum & Raisin Dark Chocolate, Pringles, Chips More butter crunch flavor plus double chocolate chip flavor, Udders Waffle with Mao Shan Wang Durian ice cream, Pear Sorbet ice cream, some Choc Marsh ice cream, some Snickers Mars Honeycomb ice cream, candy and sushi. That's not including my main meals such as Fried Fish Fillet with rice... I think a new flavor of junkfood tree is going to grow in my stomach.

I've always thought i would live the longest if there were no more food left in the world. Because even if we ran out of poultry or rice, i could still have my junkfood breakfast, junkfood lunch and junkfood dinner. Gosh, i'm crazy. It's actually damn gross to eat junkfood continuosly without proper food. I've tried that, believe me. In fact that's how i feel right now. I guess even if you throw Calbee in my face i wouldn't eat it.

Anyway, i'm excited about Wednesday! We're finally going to do something different! I hope our maybe science centre/discovery centre/snow city/songs of the sea/museum/picnic outing works out!

I'm finally blogging again and it's all rants. Oh well. I still love my blog for being here for me to release whatever weird feelings i might be having. Facebook's not bad lah. I'm on Twitter now, is anybody else there?

Night world, i'm NOT going to have my late night junkfood anymore. I think i've used the word junkfood for about 20 times in this entry alone. Talk about focus. Hah. Loves (: