oh fcuk fcuk fcuk. Here i am too sick again. I realize that this happens when im overly stressed, busy, tired and with a huge lack of rest. This time it's waaaay too scary.

I'm spitting out blood! Bloood-ed! BLOOD! and it's not just once, it's every time when i spit a bit of saliva. Yucky, i know but still. im friggin' scared :(

I went to e lousy Doctor at Jo-Lin clinic or sth. Dear Yin accompanied me and we waited for like 40mins? And she spoke to me fer like 3mins?! She totally dismissed my concerns of my throat n just said that "yeah, e sore throat is quite deep". Then proceeded to check my palms and feet and said, "hope it's not HFMD" and "ok i give u 2 days MC. That's it."

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Then i came home and spoke to my colleague who told me to go for a check-up and all the negative things that might happen. And there, you have a overly worried girl. Grr.

Neways, my throat feels as if there is a deep cut or like a knife pointing at it :( And i have 5 ulcers too many.

My medication on our Chinese looking table. Antibiotics and fever medicine to swallow, lozenges to suckle, gurgle to.. well, gurgle and ulcer cream for my ulcers. Sucha troublesome combination of medicine! You can't possible suckle and gargle or apply ulcer cream and gurgle at one go right?! Plus after the gurgle and ulcer cream, my mouth taste horrid. Like sth turned rancid. I had no choice bt to have other sweets. I have no idea if it's e after taste of e gurgle or just e ulcer cream (but i'm used to this already n i dont rem such a yecky taste).

AHHHH. i hate it i hate it.

I bet you enjoyed reading my over-exceedingly minor details about my being sick. Somehow i always dont have the time to blog about happy events but when i have thing to grumble about, i'm here. Tsk. Sigh. i hope things get better and my next entry will be a good one.

I hate how health, sickness, diasasters and accidents affect our happy life. Why can't we just keep on living normally, happily? It's a rhetorical question, DON'T answer.

it's 11:02 PM now