Well hello there! I'm obviously back from wonderful Thailand, Bangkok. *Khabu Khab~*

Please believe me when i say i'm going to blog about my 5 day Bangkok Trip okay? I'm trying hard to curb my bad habits, especially the procrastination and junkfood frenzy. And i think i have improved somewhat. *beams*

I guess there's one thing left to do before i move on with my life as a singleton... Yes i partied, got semi-drunk, cried my eyes out (when i was tipsy?), got hungover with days of migraine, lost my appetite, escaped to a foreign country... okay lah some of these things just happened at the same time. But anyway, i wanted to say that i cleared most of my life of him.

The annoying thing is that because it's been 3 years, everything seems to remind you of the person. I have included him in every part of my life and given my all. I have been down the route of "was it mostly my fault" and so on but ultimately i guess it doesn't matter anymore. So yeah, i need to stop thinking about it :/

So i was saying, it's been so long it's hard to clear my life of him but then again, we didn't have much to begin with. All this dawned on me when i started clearing away our things. The changes... I should have realized this and ended it earlier before all this shit could happen. I think the familiarity took the best of me and i was hanging on.

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That is like 90% of our story. Not including the plushies and photos i guess. I am anal like that. I insist to keep all the small things -every movie ticket, sentosa ticket, candle... At times i think i should be a guy :/ So yeah, i packed 'em up and they fit easily into these li'l packages. I'll have to remove the plushies from my bed one by one as i still can't bear them.

I think this is the last time you will hear about "FatFat", "baby", or see our photograph (there in the photo got our picture what!). Guess i'll have to remove my photo-video-scroll thingy too cause it contains a lot of our photos.

With a heavy heart, this has truly come to an end. I hope that the past 3 years havent been just a dream on my part. Each time i want to feel nostalgic, the image of your photos and your lies hit me in the face. So i'm not going to let myself miss anything. I'll look back and smile. I'll just remember the happy times, however little they were.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you for the memories. I wish you and your family well.

I believe i am strong enough now that i can blog like that without feeling the familar pang in my heart.

I'm just waiting for the rumors and gossips to die. Yes i ended it, but he wanted it too. Yes of course it hurts like hell and it gives me sleepless night and empty dreams. Hope that's enough information for you. Let's move on now, shall we?

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*Randomly inserts photo of myself*

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